Reflecting on the encounter I had last week led me to a deeper understanding of the situation I find myself in today. I am grateful for the painful experience of bumping up against another person’s boundary. What I am learning about myself as I turn my gaze inward has less to do with that encounter, more to do with the decisions I need to make for myself as the world emerges from a long, dark year.
Starting with the encounter last Saturday, a number of events happened this week that made me realize that things had changed in my life, and I need to change with them. This is not an unfamiliar feeling for me. It is kind of like going on a road trip without a map, but knowing you only have to watch the roads signs for directions. I am not always sure when the road signs will show up, but I can trust that when I see them, I should follow them. I know I now have to make some decisions, but what will be the outcome is not yet quite clear.
I envision this emotional space as a dark and lush landscape. The grounding is rich soil with signs of life, filled with lots of greenery, with tall mountains against the dark sky. The sun is already rising and bringing forth bright rays of light. With wisdom and understanding comes a great sense of hope and strong faith in what lies ahead.